not sure if anyone will actually read this
today has been rough. recently I ended things with the guy I had been involved with for 2 years. hes been dealing with being depressed for a while, so whenever I brought up the subject of dating he would say how hes not really able to maintain a relationship due to his mental state and how he doesn’t want to drag anyone else down with him.
today I log onto facebook, and the first thing on my minifeed is that he’s in a relationship with another girl. now in two years of hooking up he wouldn’t even respond to fb wall posts of mine, let alone make our relationship public. I am just so hurt that he’s not only moved on already, but he’s got a girlfriend. I spent two years of my life with him feeling constantly down on myself for how he treated me, and he already is dating someone. whats so wrong with me? its like in sex in the city when big says he doesn’t believe in marriage and carrie says how every guy says that then you break up and he’s now engaged to some younger girl.
Mostly I’m just upset that I’m taking this to heart so much. I’d been upset with him so much anyways and I’ve ended things between us so many times but he always would then say what I want to hear and we’d get back together. But when I read that this morning I just couldn’t stop crying. And thats what makes me mad. I promised myself I wouldn’t cry over him ever again, and I was doing really well until this morning.
fuck.
